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Where Are You, God?
© 2005 Linda Van Fleet
Do you ever have one of those days when you wonder if God is really
there? Does He really exist? If He does, then why can't you see Him or even
sense His presence? I was in that place a few days ago.
I stood at my window facing south on a cold winter's day. The
hardwood trees were bare of leaves and I could see a portion of the graveled
road that meandered around hills and valleys to get to our house on top of the
ridge. The road seemed to disappear into nothingness as it curved upward into
a dense thicket of evergreens where it would cross over the creek and continue
up the hill to where I live. I adjusted my eyes to look down the ridge directly
under the window, straining to see through the tree trunks and undergrowth to
catch a glimpse of the roadway I knew was there. From my vantage point at the
window in my house atop the hill, I could see for miles across the distance.
But I couldn't see any trace of the roadbed that was about 50 yards below my
window because so there was so many bushes and trees in my view. Although I
heard the roar of rushing water of the creek that struggled to contain the fullness
of two weeks of rainfall, I could not see the waters tumbling over the rocks
and slapping against the pilings of the covered bridge that spanned the creek
at the bottom of the hill.
But I knew the road and the creek were there. The fact that I
could not see them did not change the actuality of their existence. I traveled
the road every day. I knew it. I knew the exact spot in the creek where our
dog, Peppy, loved to splash and play. I couldn't see them but I didn't doubt
their existence for a moment.
It was then that I heard that sweet, inner voice speak to me,
"Just because you can't see me, feel me, touch me does not change the actuality
of my existence. For, lo .."
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I am with you always, even to the end of the age."
I whispered the comforting passage from the Bible, joining my voice with the
inner voce that spoke gently to my heart.
I smiled as I turned away from the window that day. I was not
alone. God was as real as the dirt road and the babbling brook. I just couldn't
see Him because of all the other stuff - the dense undergrowth - in my life.
But He was there all the time.
Peace, Peace, wonderful peace
Coming down from the Father above
sweep over my spirit forever I pray
in fathomless billows of love.
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